Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

I've got to stop

It has become painfully, and humiliatingly obvious that, with the exception of a treasured few of you who are legitimately on this journey with me, my narrative of my life is not what I intended. I am a soap opera. I am where people go to read and feel superior about themselves so they can go on with their day. I am NASCAR, a place to kill time while waiting for the carnage.

That's not what I wanted this to be. And that is has been twisted for so long, and that it has evaded me, shames me like you wouldn't believe. I feel like an utter fucking fool. Sitting here, being completely open and honest . . . and for what? To be someone's sick entertainment.

And with the exception of a treasured few of you, those are my "followers", my "friends". And that is not what I wanted.

So, I'm taking my keyboard and going home. To those treasured few of you, thank you. Thank you for trying.
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