Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

Dear Diary, Triumphant

Dear Diary,

I have just finished writing, editing, posting, and promoting my very first short story. It was meant to be a 1,200 word piece of flash fiction, and turned into a 4,000 word short story. I have never been able to come up with a beginning, middle and end of anything but a poem, and usually a few years in between. I am oozing with pride.

I was initially going to post the whole thing on FB, on the Circus Catimus page, as Felix’s story. What I have done is split it up, a 750 word excerpt in an open post on Patreon, linked to at all of my FB pages and my Tumblr page, with a link at the bottom of the excerpt to join my Patreon campaign to read the rest and reap the rest of the rewards. I doubt it will work, the story isn’t compelling, just cute as fuck. But I have been giving away my writing for 18 years. I should at least try to get paid something for it. I don’t mind writing for exposure, but writing for Circus Catimus exposes me to 14 people who I am already exposed to. So this seemed logical.

I talked about it at length with Doc. About whether I was being selfish, hiding my art away behind a wall of fees. I feel selfish. I feel greedy and kind of bad. I want people to read it more than I want the money. That’s the thing. There are so many things I want to release to Patrons only, but I want people to see them, more. I wanted to release Haven exclusively to Patreon Patrons, but I wanted more than 3 people to see it. It was important to me that as many people see it as possible. So I released it and had nothing for Patreon that week. I have to watch that. From now on, if I make a video for the public, I have to make one for Patrons. A better one.

They say the way to get Patrons is to make frequent open posts. So I make one once a week. I’m trying to make two, but I have to work up to it. But it isn’t making any difference because no one is going to my page. If no one goes there, it doesn’t matter how much you post, no one is reading them.

I was admonished not to stay up too late tonight. That was an hour ago. I wonder what too late is. Dawn? I think I’ll stay up until dawn. I’d like to work on my composite video for a while tonight. That’s the next thing for Patreon Patrons. They get it for two weeks before it goes public. I still don’t know if I’ll do music to it. Maybe some Beethoven. Or maybe a Mozart Requiem. The theme of the video is fairly religious/blasphemous, so some holy music is in order. And my has tons of symphonies to choose from to use on youtube.

We’re flat broke right now. It’s a weird feeling that harkens back to my childhood/teen years. I don’t like it at all. Just a few more days and we’re out of it. Just a temporary thing. I just wish it hadn’t happened. It will take us a couple of months to catch up. And it’s my birthday month. Why always May and December? Holiday months. Why always them? I can wait for my tablet, but not for long. I will be able to get it by the end of the month, which is good.

I have decided I want to do the logo for Punk Rock Handicrafts freehand. I have been through scores of Anarchy symbols and fonts and I don’t like any of them as much as I like my Anarchy symbol and block scrawl. So I will draw the logo for the cards, stickers, tags, labels and t-shirts. And maybe small bags. Small plastic bags for packaging the jewelry cards in. Maybe I can get some printed with the logo. So they can’t be reused by unscrupulous jewelers like myself.

Yeah, the later I stay up at night, the later I get up in the morning and the more likely I am to have email and FB notices that matter. So that is a bonus. When I go to bed at 1 and get up at 3 or 4, there is nothing of substance waiting for me, I have to wait for it. And now that my inbox is empty, it is so lonely in there, waiting, watching.

Speaking of PRH, here is the modified plan: I’m slowly setting up shop, behind the scenes. I will not open it before I get the logo worked out and graphics made. Some of the items that are now duplicated on Etsy will be moved over to PRH, and the prices lowered, because no fees. Plus, Patreon Patrons will get a discount, and I will have special sales from time to time. This will be a proper shop. If it takes off, I will get it its own URL for Christmas and a blog about it’s creations with scans from my sketchbook and tutorials. I bought the theme I use on this site with WordPress, so  I can use it on multiple sites and personalize it millions of ways. I hope for the eventual evolution of PRH into something more.

Speaking of all of this, I have a couple of bracelet designs in mind that will net me five bracelets to list tomorrow. Period Pride bracelets. I have to think of something to make these go viral. Well, tomorrow, I can start with my Instagram campaign, and my Twitter campaign in earnest. Maybe I’ll make a video . . . hmmmm. That would require a script. I bet if I lay down to try to sleep, I can come up with one.

Bracelet time. Got to get these out of my head and into the box.


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