Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

Why am I Doing this, Again?

Dear Diary,

dear diaryThe SEO work I’ve been doing has done nothing at all for my rankings, or even mention in the big search engines. I signed up for another plugin to help me with it. Dear Diary, I’m having a mid-life crisis, I don’t have any more time to wait for the fucking public to notice me. Okay, I have time, I just don’t have patience.

I have a problem I’m going to ask your advice on. Doc makes enough money a year. If I had a service dog and he didn’t need to stay with me so much, he would make more than enough money. He has a shopping habit. A grocery shopping habit. I’ve let it go for the past 19 years because we love to eat good food. But the other day when he saw his tax form, and realized how much money he makes, he looked to me as to why we are struggling so much. I spend an average of $30 a month. The rest of my money goes to bills and rent and meds and psych bills. For example, today, Doc is going to shell out $150 of my money on Cymbalta.

I’m not sure what to do, do I gather receipts for a month and put them together and add them up? Do I point this out to him? Or do I let it go because it is his money? I’ll be honest, when he says no to a $15 pair of new jeans for me that I have been trying to get for three years, and then spends $30 on pizza and wings in the same hour. He doesn’t see the contradiction, and I think it’s because it is his money to decide what happens to it. And that is fine. I just don’t know what to do. I need to buy underwear again because my boy underwear are causing a rash on my stomach. And he got pizza the other night with the money I would have gotten the underwear with. But I feel really bad bringing that up to him. Help? Advice? Should I just keep my mouth shut, or try to help him understand?

The Link: Charles Schultz/The Smiths. I just don’t need to say anymore.


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