Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers


I will be amazed if this cat makes it through the night. I have shut off my emotions and erected a shield around myself. I got up to have a smoke, she followed me into the kitchen so I gave her something to eat. And she drank, but with the trouble I described earlier.

But she just has that smell to her. That smell of death. Henry and Chloe both had it. I recognized it immediately when she started cuddling me in the kitchen. Boomer came up to her to kiss her and sniffed and ran away. She smells it, too. Now I'm in a bit of a pickle. I really should stay up with this cat, though I don't know why, to watch her die? and be traumatized by that as well? but I've already taken my meds, which means in another 20 minutes I will be as useless as a sorority chick in her third hour of a frat party.

Please don't let my cat die tonight. Let her have this weekend with Doc, at least. Please. He deserves it. He has been a magnificent father to her. They are so close. All of his love for Chloe went to LeLu when Chloe died. LeLu is the last of the original trio. 17 years of our nonsense, she's put up with.

On a happier note, I think they found the free range lizard today, and quite alive. it evaded all of them. i was collecting screen caps and i was sitting on my legs and i looked down and about 5 cats were on the floor in front of my couch, staring intently beneath it. Daring each other to be the first one to go in and get it. So, we still have a pet lizard.

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