Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

When is it ever enough?

LeLu has deteriorated. She got her appetite back, and she's still on electrolytes, but she can't jump up on the counter anymore and she is weak on her feet. She isn't dehydrated. But she came to me for dinner with a mouth full of blood. I rinsed it out with a syringe/warm salt water and got her cleaned up. Doc asked the unaskable question: Are we going to have to put her down? Tomorrow he is taking her and a gingerbread cake I made over to Vet and his wife and asking Vet if LeLu is bad enough/in so much pain that it would be more merciful for us to take the most drastic step. We watched Henry starve to death slowly as we tried to feed him through a surgically inserted tube. Chloe deteriorated slowly and we watched her linger on. And we swore to ourselves we would never put our animals or ourselves through that again.

He wasn't mad about the online thing when I told him this morning and we talked about it and did stuff about it. But when he woke up for work, he was loaded for bear, and every shot hit me straight on. And I had to promise, Yes I Am Done With Fucking With People Online. He was really mad. And I wasn't expecting it. I thought I had dodged that bullet. Nope. And the LeLu thing had him in a rotten mood over all. We have no one but each other to take it out on.

I told him I got the Go Fund Me page up. I didn't bother telling him how ashamed it made me. I feel like a pan handler. I have to get that money back somehow. He's paying rent tomorrow, which will drain my account, so no more damage can be done. He's also going to talk them out of their courtesy overdraft protection, which they gave to us because of the complicated but government nature of the account. If it weren't for that, they would have just refused to pay for the domain early yesterday morning and I wouldn't be out any money and likely wouldn't even know I'd been invaded. But they were nice to me. That doesn't pay. Well, I guess it did for them.

Doc inquired as to motive. All I could come up with is what the #stoprush crowd has come up with: to play games and cause stress. Just because he can.

Do us a favor? go read the summation of the "campaign" and let me know if I should add or remove anything. I plan on adding links to my videos and candid pictures that aren't already everywhere as time goes on.

Okay, I'm getting a mess of Twitter messages, I should go see what's happening. Once it calms down, I have some chores to do. And maybe an episode of NCIS to watch.

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