Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

Ok people, joke's over.

We all gathered together and sang Cumbaya; mental health awareness was raised about an inch for three or four hours until the tragedy in Ferguson took over the media; and the real creeps were outed, (I'm looking at you, Gene Simmons). Time for this nonsense to stop and Robin Williams to reappear and tell us the reason for this farce. No, really.

Because he just can't be gone, you see. There just can't be a world without him. We need him. I need him.

If I believed for one solid moment that there was an afterlife, I would be dead by now, to be in a place with him. God, that sounded melodramatic. But it is what it is. I have spent the week collecting my favorite TV and movie appearances of him. I can't watch them, though. Not yet. It's too soon. I may never be able to watch them again. I can't even read articles about him or look at pictures of him. I had to log off facespace and twitter for two days.

I always imagined he was my "real" father. that he was where i got my weird from. i dreamed he would come and save me from the savages that raised me. I watched his movies and shows and interviews and stand up over and over and over again. I wore my rainbow suspenders. I cried and whined because I couldn't get the same pins for mine that he had for his. I tried to drink with my finger, and i sat on my own head. I was as uninhibited as a child as Mork was, he was my idol, I wished he was my dad.

That wish never went away. And it never will.

You can't run from us, Robin. We will always love you, no matter what you do.

  • note to self

    title next CD "Whiskey in the Bong" that's all

  • (no subject)

    "that broad hasn't eaten since mommy put the bra back on"

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