Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

i hate myself for the way i treat him.

He tries so hard. And he is so patient. He does everything he can think of to make my life easier, better. And I fault him if the ideas aren't the right ones. I suck here, not him.

After the unreserved cunt i have been for the last two days, when i woke up, he expressed regret that he was just going to bed as i got up. how sweet is that? I know, i could cry.

i get so hateful when i'm sober. i mean, i can't even describe how incredibly unpleasant i get. yesterday was largely a sober day. this morning was sober. at one point i threw my pot and pipe in the garbage rather than smoke it and feel better, that is how bad i felt. i wanted to wallow in it. it was pathetic.

and through it all he was running around, trying to do things to make me happy and never succeeding.

i hate myself for the way i treat him.

  • dry hot and dusty as hell

    My last surviving grand parent died a couple of weeks ago. Two days to the hour o my Nana's death, my favorite cat, Boo, died in my arms. The grief…

  • Hey there, hi there, ho there

    I'm back, bitches and bastards, TC paid for a forever pass, I should use it. The cops came over and did a welfare check about a month ago. My…

  • Got Caught Stealing

    Having had yet another clever thing stolen by a bunch of what I have to assume are white middle aged hate macines; The line in my twitter profile…

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 1 comment