Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers


I've decided, once again, to stop being nice to stupid people and to start calling people on it when they are stupid or think I am stupid. I've had enough. I've been nice on this internet thing, because sarcasm doesn't translate. And I've never been very good at confrontation, it makes my heart pound hard and I am uncomfortable with that.Especially pompous poets whose work makes no damn sense unless you have a diagram (how is it then, any different from a math equation, done with words?), or stupid boys from high school that I don't remember that want to argue with me about everything I post. Fuck them all. I keep it inside online and then take it out on myself or Doc. No more. When someone assumes I'm being obtuse, I'm going to ask them why, what have I done to make them think that of me?

later, much much later . . .

I finally won a gold trophy for one of my poems! I haven't looked to see which one, but I'm pretty happy. I advanced to level 17 with that, too. Something of an accomplishment for me. And people are coming to my page and reading and commenting on multiple poems, not just one. So that's cool that someone is finally reading them.

My best friend is in a bad place and I don't know what to do for her. I'm trying to concentrate on her and not on how useless I feel to her. I wish I could be there to take her out and get her pissed and listen to her cry. Sometimes you just need a drastic change in your life, and she is right there, needing it badly. Our lives are almost completely opposite right now, and I don't know how to share what i have with her. Does that make any sense? I can't help but feel if we were together this wouldn't be happening.

argh, my hair is driving me crazy! it tickles all the time. I have it pulled back and it creeps around the right side of my neck. rarr! now I understand how I get to the point of shaving it off. I look horrible with short hair (I only realized after a life of short hair), but the itching and the tangling! Actually I don't mind the tangling so much since i lost 1/3 of the volume of my hair. Now that it's thinned out, it is much easier to deal with. Also, keeping it layered helps. What would also help is shaving my neck to get the short hairs that do nothing but tangle and pull and tickle and hurt. Some days it just gets to me. This would be one of those days.

Ahhhhhh . . . I don't even have enough energy to make another pot of coffee. I have no milk left, so what is the point, really? I could walk up to the corner store a mile away and get a soda. I may do that before the night is out. I'm almost over coffee. I'm turning into a hard core soda drinker. Which also needs to stop. It's no good for my teeth, or my waist line. I don't mind pudge from easy living, though living isn't all that easy sometimes, over all it's good. But extra skin and flab from too much soda is too much for me to take.

I think I'll shop for new and inspiring fonts. Maybe find a couple of suggestions for Kel.

Time to see Doc off to work and take the dog for a walk. Have a nice night.

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