i never got to see my Nana. i really thought my mom would come through today. ha. you'd think after 44 years, i would learn. i'll call her this weekend.
i redesigned the main page of fabulousdisaster.com again. i hated the blue and purple as soon as i had uploaded it. doc says the graphics are way too small now. too small to be used on a phone, but i don't really care about that. my whole site is phone unfriendly. i have rollover graphics and shit that just doesn't work on the phones. so i'm not really worried about that aspect of it. i don't think people should be surfing the web on tiny screens, anyway. this is my stand.
i also recorded three new pieces for the spoken word page. i have come to the decision that i do not like "Go Ahead, Eat the Daisies". it isn't as good as "Poking". maybe after i edit it for punctuation and capitalization and shit and add some more work to it and republish it, i will like it better. it's the content. the poetry just isn't as good. i see it now as i look for pieces to read. i'm having a really hard time finding pieces to read. i may just go back to reading stuff from "Poking". i don't know. i guess i need to write better poetry. which i am now. "Daisies" represents the last ten years. and most of you know, they were not good or coherent years. so of course the work sucks. i couldn't follow a train of thought. i couldn't read books for five years in there, writing a poem was equally out of bounds.
we have come to the conclusion that Lelu has lost her hearing. we've been testing her and getting nothing. it's beyond her ignoring us. she feels vibrations well enough, she just can't hear our voices or the dog barking or Major meowing. she's old. i'm glad it was her hearing that went and not her sight. that would be too much for me, i don't know how i would deal with her not being able to see. and would the others take advantage of her? anyway, yeah, deaf cat. so she can't hear me sing, lucky kitty.
ugh, there is a bug in my shirt, and i can't get it. grr. i liked that shirt, too. although the one i have on now smells nicer.
i'm wearing leggings today. doc said i looked comfortable, and asked if he should be buying me leggings when he sees them on sale at wallyworld. um, yes! i don't wear them out because i see myself as still fat. so i won't wear them in public. but for hanging around the house, which is what i am always doing, they are fabulous.
i napped in my bed for the first time in a month or more. it was nice. i slept for four hours. so i guess it was good. i woke up and it was dark, i was so confused. i think tonight after doc leaves, i will go to bed in there. the bugs kind of ruined it for me out here.