so i'm going to look into the programs in the area. years ago i defaulted on my student loan, so that is out. but as i remember it from chef school years ago, these places are meant to be affordable and rely heavily on grants to fund them. chances are we could afford it. i just have to get over the whole leaving the house thing. but i think i can do it. i really want to be a pastry chef. i would love to work at a bakery creating luscious things like quiche muffins (a life project i've been working on perfecting, not even close yet, i don't have the chemistry understanding of baking materials to invent a muffin yet, but when i do, you will all get to enjoy it!) and cakes. i'm not particularly interested in decorating cakes, i did that with my mom's huge collection of Wilton stuff as i was growing up. not my thing. but making the cakes, making cookies and candy, that, i'm in to.
so that's my big plot. turns out doc is all for it. he doesn't mind me going to school first. had i known that i would have brought it up a year and a half ago. if i can schedule myself to sleep at a normal hour and for a normal amount of time at a stretch, i could not just go to school but get myself a part time job. i will not work at walmart. i've got my eye on the corner store. they are always hiring. still minimum wage, but i can do convenience store stuff in my sleep. they are how i put myself through college and chef school the first time.
enough of this. i'm going to go look up pastry chef schools here, i should have my pick of them in this town. and then answer the coolest email i've ever gotten. once i'm distanced enough from it not to cry with happy warm feelings every time i look at it.