Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers
cydniey

not doing great this morning, i dreamt of him for the first time in years and now i'm afraid

beatnik

he had to watch me
fall in love with you
and he stood by
as we ripped
each other apart
and i confused you
and you hurt me
that it was my fault
goes without saying
i made it happen
i was the stupid one
and i almost killed
everything i had
for your bitterness
for your meanness
he had to watch me
get over you again
after so many years
and he stood by
while my heart broke
and promises
were never kept
and you ran
that was my fault
it goes without saying
i made it happen
i was the stupid one
and i almost killed
everything i had
this many years later
he still has to hear
the catch in my voice
as i mention you
compulsively
unable to stop myself
reliving the pain and anger
and i look to him
to make it go away
even for a little while
while you
never know anything
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