Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

one less drug i have to put in my system

i saved the unpacking until later tonight/tomorrow morning. instead i went through this month's cam images. the video i made yesterday was made with images from that day, BTW. i just felt like using something current.

anyone know a good program to record from onboard webcam and USB mic? i googled, but drowned in the mess. doesn't matter if it's a free program or not, i will find a way to get it. i have Adobe Audition, does that do it? i don't want to install it if it doesn't. i'm trying not to install a lot of stuff on here until after i do the recovery (and i just got chillcam to play nice with the acer cam on here). but anyway, i need to record a trailer for my channel, i just don't know how. heh.

at some point tomorrow i have to make time to finish my current tangle. my first official one. i've been doodling vines and patterns for years, but now it has a name. i have to do it during the day because the light in here is soft and i'm working with light colored pencils. can't see well. but the light is fine for reading, which is what i'm going to do tomorrow evening while doc sleeps. i just haven't decided what, yet. if i find "Blackwod Farm" tomorrow, i'll start re-reading that. i'm in the mood for some Rice.

the computers are backed up. the archives are organized. i'm caught up with cam images. until the recovery disk gets here, there's not a lot for me to do.

once doc has gone to work, i have some light housework to do. i want to mop the tile floors in the house and sweep the patio and generally clean it up. then i'm going to go to work on the tool table in the garage. we have this 6' long table that i have been putting all the tools and hardware on that i find around the house. the house is now pretty much clear of hardware items, so it's time to organize the table. it will be so nice to be able to find everything. we have three tool boxes. three drills, and a recharger for only one of them, so far. i'll find the others. i've been gathering up stray a/c adapters, as well and it will soon be time to marry them to their tools.

i went in to get doc up to watch Breaking Bad and he opted to sleep an extra hour. good, i didn't want to watch it. the show depresses me. instead i'm watching Bad Ink. watching Dirk Vermin work makes me want hi to tattoo me even more. but i've given up on the fingerprint tat. in 20 years, it will just be a blob. so i'm back to my black cats playing with string wrapped around my arm. i need to research tattooing on scars, though because my arm pretty much IS scar tissue. that's the whole point of the tat, to take focus away from the scars. i've put a lot of thought into this. what it will look like if i gain weight, what it will look like in the future, after sun exposure, etc. if i'm going to pay someone to mark my body permanently, i'm making sure i love what i'm getting and will love it for a long time.

i'm pretty proud of myself, for the first time in 13 years, i have managed to keep the coffee table clean and uncluttered. not an easy task with doc around. he leaves a paper trail somehow of coupons and reciepts and mail and such. i've put myself in the habit of putting things away when i am done using them, as opposed to just leaving them out. a bad habit i got into in the first two years with doc. i'm trying to lead by example, but i've found it's easier and less stressful to just follow him around, picking up. he's only one person, so it's no big deal. after the cloying closeness of the apartment, packed overflowing, i am determined to keep this place clean and straight. if it means cleaning up after doc, well, he buys my tampons, who am i to complain?

wow, the time has gone really quickly. i'm going to go smoke a cigarette before i have to wake doc up for real. i still haven't decided if i'm going to sleep or stay up tonight. i've only had a few hours of sleep. but i got 8 hours yesterday or the day before. straight through, it was brilliant. for the first time in over a year. real sleep. i've stopped taking ambien altogether, it is wasted on me, and it's one less drug i have to put in my system.

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