it's 2:30am and i'm up still. i may take a nap in an hour. Red has to get up at 6 to get finished packing. she's leaving around 9. i'll get to meet the guy she's getting a ride with and take pictures of his truck and license plate and him. just to be safe. she IS getting into a car for 6 hours with her dog and a stranger. but i'm not worried, he seems like a really nice guy. he just got out of the Air Force. and he's been calling and keeping in touch with Red as he travels across the country.
we said our heartfelt sloppy sentiments tonight. i told her i knew i was getting a house mate, but had no idea i would get a good friend. we both started to cry. girls. you know how it is.
i got a really bad case of the hiccups tonight. and my ribs didn't hurt! i'm finally better. i think i did good with this injury. i took my medicine and didn't whine about it. once it was diagnosed and taken care of. stupid hospital emergency room. i have to call the ambulance company tomorrow and give them my insurance info. i'll be damned if i'm paying $1,014 for a bet IV needle and a ride. i'll pay the $50 co-pay without complaint.
the shrink search continues. tomorrow we widen the search. we're going to end up with a doctor in fucking Reno at this rate. there just aren't enough shrinks to go around in this town. too many people are fucking nuts. granted, we should have started this quest a few months ago, but we didn't and now are paying the price. i even called a doctor i'd been to before and didn't like, she had no new patient appointments until august. ugh.
the tornado was an act of terrorism by god. that is the long and the short of it, if you're going to believe in god. i'm sickened by christians like Falwell who claim that the people in OK didn't pray enough or weren't faithful enough and that's why it happened. no. it happened because it happens every year. natural disasters are disasters because we've built and inhabited every part of this country, no matter the risks. mudslides, hurricanes, earthquakes, tornadoes. we are arrogant and think these things will not happen to US. but they happen to a lot of people. that is what living on a planet will do. it goes about its business not caring about us. and face it, we don't care much about it. we take it for granted.
and the attack in london has me sick, too. another example of religious doctrine taken and used to kill. fucking bullshit. we would be better off without religion, if only to get rid of the fundamentalists that are dangerous. religion preys on the weak minded and weak willed. and that's where we come up with the problems. fanatics who take things either literally or twist them to fit their own delusions of grandeur. fucking sick shit.
www.redcross.org is where you can do the most. a prayer is nice, and if it makes you feel better while you donate a few dollars, all the better. but prayer didn't keep the tornado from killing and destroying, it isn't stopping republicans from calling for offsets for any aid. fuck that. i only had $10 to give and that leaves me broke until june 25th, but i don't care. if enough people do a little, it adds up to a lot.
i'm trying to get information on shelters in the area, and will post that info if i find it, if you want to wait and donate to them instead of the red cross. not just people lost life as they know it that day. a lot of animals did, too. help will be needed and no matter what, the government will not help with that.
Red has made me more aware of the needs of animals in this country. and the need to help shelters everywhere, not just in my community. i'm not going to become an activist or anything. i still believe in testing on animals, i would support testing on humans if it were legal. i'd rather have hair dye tried on a human than a rabbit, but i'll take what science has for me. and i still love the circus.
my play list is stuck in the mid 80s tonight. unreal. i always load all 372 songs into windows media player and hit "shuffle" so i get a random sampling of the music. it seems to have put all the 80s stuff together. Ultravox, Blue Nile, Yaz . . . past after past.
which finger do you use your touch pad with? i use my right middle finger. the index finger doesn't seem to do it for me. i can't steer with it. funny, that was my nose picking finger when i was a kid. now it's the most coordinated digit i use.
okay, so . . . time to go make a video or do something creative. i'm dying to create something. it's been brewing in me for the past hour or so and now i've had a cup of coffee and a couple of smokes and i'm ready to go. i also need to escape this nostalgia onslaught my media player has going right now.
have a fan-fucking-tastic day. i insist.