so i thought about it really hard and finally came up with why i can't unpack and put this place together. i feel like we're at the shore house. like this isn't our place and we're going to have to leave it soon. it's too big and too nice. so it's seemed inappropriate to make it "mine". so today's goal is to start building my tent and empty out the bags of stuffed animals on the bed. put the lights up on the curio cabinet and put the mirror on the dresser. that will start the process. then i can finish unpacking the kitchen. i know where most of the stuff is, it's just a matter of getting it out of the garage.
i think i'll also help doc with his room today. he's been meant to move from the small room to the master bedroom for weeks now, since mike left. and it just hasn't happened.
he did the yard work yesterday. we have no plans for tomorrow. so we can spend two days getting shit together and into the house and out of the garage. i want to put shelves up in the garage, so i can put my craft stuff up there. that way it isn't in the house, but it's accessible in case i feel inspired. though, to be honest, the inspiration i feel coming on is for writing.
i can feel leaks starting in the dam that is holding me back. soon the words will come. it has to be a priority that i read my books and listen to my mp3s and get reacquainted with y work. i have to know what i've lost before i can try to get it back.