and then there's doc. we had it out this morning. it felt great to get to some truth for a change. with both of us. i told him all the feelings i've been keeping in for three years, since he told me he didn't love me. he told me a lot of his feelings. which was not a first, but maybe a third or fourth.
i found a couple of places on craigslist. one place is in a questionable neighborhood, but is going to be checked out anyway. the other is dreamy like the first. it's out someplace called Painted Desert. which sounds dreamy. it's also blessed with a pool, which is not something we were looking for, but i could really get into taking care of it and the attached hot tub.
i still have hope he'll pull it together. i'm resigned to my decision still. but i am giving him until the 30th. we'll see if we can pull it off. i will help him by combing craigslist and packing the apartment, but the rest is up to him.
