the voices in my head tell me to kill myself. one of them suggested i kill the cats first so i can die knowing that they won't need to be taken care of. i have two bottles of trazadone, that has to be enough to kill me. i can't kill the cats, though. i couldn't hurt them. but myself, i could hurt. i could die. i could end this, doc will be free.
i'm glad doc is home with me today. i'm just lost in the dark forest.