yesterday was kind of rough. early in the afternoon i started getting restless, then i started getting scared. then i got all worked up. i took a xanax and i don't know if it helped, or if i just calmed down. i spent most of the evening in a half awake state on the couch. i was awake when doc got home, but he was grumpy and didn't talk much. better than when he's grumpy and won't shut up.
he's awake. i hope he goes back to sleep before he decides to come out here. i don't want to deal with him right now. i'm not prepared.