82 degrees for halloween!

things not to wake up to: anything narrated by David Attenborough, the travel channel. i am in a foul mood. my meds aren't doing anything about it. i've eaten, so it's not a blood sugar thing. i have my coffee and i just had a fun size milkyway for a bit of a sugar rush. i still feel like taking a bottle of xanax. i told doc last night i wanted to die. he just nodded. i didn't know what to do with that. i assume it means, "quit talking about it and do it already." i wonder if he's like me and figures that's the only and inevitable end to this relationship. actually, i see him meeting someone and leaving me for her.

yes, i'm all about chipper today.