i'm no more bored than i am in the afternoons, i wonder why the afternoons are so rough for me. from now on when i get bored and hopeless feeling, i'm going to sleep. if i have to drug myself, i'll do it. there's no need for me to get so worked up. once sunset comes, i get better. and i'm good in the mornings up until about an hour after dawn. i just don't see any need for me to be up during the day, aside from chores, which i can do at night. well, i could, if M didn't go to bed at 8:30 in the evening. the point is, i don't need to be up all day to get things done.
i don't know. why is everything so damn complicated?