Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers
cydniey

triple digits today? ugh

it took two hours, but the morning panic attack is over and i'm feeling pretty good. i keep blacking out, though. but my meds will be here in a week and i can switch back from risperdone to prolixin. at that point, the blackouts should stop. sometimes i think i mess with my meds too much, but it seemed better to me to switch while i was out of prolixin instead of going without an anti psychotic for two weeks. things would have gotten ugly. as it is, the risperdone doesn't completely control my symptoms. the tv is talking to me and i keep seeing shit. the voices are distracting at this time, but they're not coherent. and i'm completely convinced that M is going to kill me. somewhere deep down i know that's wrong, but the prevailing feeling is extreme fear of him. and he's being totally nice to me. it's complicated, it's out of my hands. my head is just going to roam free for a few more days until the right med gets here and then i can put a leash back on it.
Subscribe

  • dry hot and dusty as hell

    My last surviving grand parent died a couple of weeks ago. Two days to the hour o my Nana's death, my favorite cat, Boo, died in my arms. The grief…

  • Hey there, hi there, ho there

    I'm back, bitches and bastards, TC paid for a forever pass, I should use it. The cops came over and did a welfare check about a month ago. My…

  • Got Caught Stealing

    Having had yet another clever thing stolen by a bunch of what I have to assume are white middle aged hate macines; The line in my twitter profile…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 0 comments