115 today, ow

i kept having really good, really real, really vivid wish fulfillment dreams today. in fact i wouldn't give it up and stayed in bed until 3. friends, light, airy houses, happy situations. i've never had anything like it, i must have had four of them. all different. gorgeous. i could handle more days like that. the only thing was that doc was not in any of them and i had both healthy breasts in all of them. i was a bit skinnier, too. i'm positive i've gained weight and i'm not happy about it.

so i'm having white pizza and onion rings for dinner. doc's around on weekends, i have to eat.

now doc's gone out for a few hours and M is out of town for the weekend. alone. happy happy joi joi.