now i'm reluctantly up. since i don't have to make coffee or get doc up, i could go back to sleep and maybe i will. i don't know, i'm in a weird limbo right now. i think i may call kelli just to see if i can ground myself. i feel like i'm floating outside of my body. i'm starting to hate it. this just isn't my body, but i couldn't tell you whose it was. i don't even feel the itching of the wound on my arm. just floating.
i need to comb my hair out and wash it. there's a nice grounding task. severe pain and a nice hot shower.