this morning is a rough morning. i didn't lay in bed because i knew doc was still up and i wanted to spend time with him and i ended up being all fucked up and anxious through it. i got a solid half hour, though. and i get an hour or two in the afternoon. today is his friday so tomorrow when i wake him up i have him all to myself.
today i have to wet vac two very dark puke stains and redo where i wet vacced the other day because jack puked there the other night. joyous. two more clean spots on the carpet. i'll get this whole carpet done. it will take me a while, but i'll get there. with just an upholstery hose.
i don't suppose anyone wants to bring me a pack of smokes. anything but menthol. cheapest ones out there, don't care. running out of cigarettes is my nightmare. doc said he'd take care of me, but he's got a lot on his mind lately. the new schedule has been rough on him. going from eight to ten hours a day, working in the middle of the night, so working a lot with asia. he looked beat this morning, i'm glad he has the next three days off.
now i'm waiting for M to get up. then i can clean the kitchen and work on the carpet. i need to just relax and breathe. breathe deep.