Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

day 56

i haven't been going to my meeting, the walk uphill is too daunting. i know i need to pull up my pants and just go. i haven't got a sponsor yet. frankly, i'm having more doubts about being in the program. most of the fellowship is cold to me. there's five or so people who make me feel comfortable, like i belong. i'm just very confused right now. i can walk there on my own, but i ask doc to come with me, he brings his bike and does the shopping while i'm in the meeting.

saturday is day 60. then i need to make it to day 90. then 6 months. i'm definitely not going day by day. i live for the next tag, the next meeting. what i should do, is during the week, walk up to the meeting place and back down, so it isn't so daunting saturdays. the excercise would do me good.

and that's the skinny on that.
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