low self esteem?

ijust called my family's house. talked briefly with my brother Kraig. my mom or dad should be calling me back. most likely my dad, my mother holds a long grudge. i have no idea what to say. just that nana suggested after ten years the feud should be over. so i put myself out there. i really should go to the hospital. i feel like hurting myself. i should tell doc this.

got to go.