Cydniey Buffers (cydniey) wrote,
Cydniey Buffers

all i need is love

doc jokes that no one can love me enough. he tries, but it is the love of others that i need, popularity, loved in a group. i know he loves me. i don't act like i know most of the time that doc loves me. it is emotionally painful to be in a group and not be the center of it. it's selfish, i know. how can a nonconformist freak want to be popular? everyone loves a weirdo?

one cannot understand my love of my straight hair. though my metal straightener doesn't work nearly as well as the ceramic one used on me in rehab. at most it is slightly wavy, and i can still run my fingers through it. so i'm in love with my hair. there's some love.

most of you guys express love for me.

maybe i'll find what i need in a meeting. once i get a sponsor, i'll have someone to talk this stuff out with.

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