i've decided to start ignoring doc when he's mad at me. i'll never do it, but i made the decision and that's half the battle. i'm tired of him saying i'm a child. i'm so much better than 6 months ago.
sometimes i want to go off all my meds and see what that leaves us with. i won't do it. but i still wonder.
i've done nothing to find a new doctor. and i need to find cab fare from my doctor's new office. M can drop me off, i have to find my own way home and it's more than my 2 bus maximum. and i need doc's cell phone so i can keep updating the order for a cab every 20 minutes.
why do things always change?