went to see J last night. too chilly for a freemont street walk. besides that, we had to get home for wrestling. we did hang out with J for an hour or so. i can't wait for him to do my hair. he's going to cut it. now we're watching SNL and i'm wondering when i should go to bed. definitely not until the turkey scene is over. now i'm going to have a disagreement about my eating habits. shit. not again. though i really need to eat because of the sheer amount of pills i'm taking. the pharmacist said i'd fuck up my liver if i didn't eat with my meds. the yogurt just smelled bad. i've been nauseous all evening. since i woke up at four or five this afternoon. i'd rather not eat, i don't want to puke again.