i'm still waiting for doc to finish his movie so that i can install spore. though i watched M in the rocket ship phase last night and i don't know if i'll be able to keep up. M is a born gamer. he has a touch with that sort of stuff. he went from the beginning to airplanes in one sitting. i don't think i'll pick it up that fast.
i'm two days into the topamax. so far the only side effect is photophobia. i have to watch tv with my sunglasses on after i take it. that seems to wear off by morning. i'm taking 25 mg and will double that next thursday. i'm not worried about the dumbing down side effects, i've been pretty worthless since the ECT. my memory is shot. doc is unhappy with this new drug, but i told him i originally wanted adderall and he flipped out. he said no in more languages than i knew he knew. you're no one until you've been chewed out in an asian dialect.
ireally want to go back to sleep, but to get there i have to climb over doc. then i have to lay there with my thoughts spinning until i eventually give up. then i climb back over doc and try not to wake him up. if i could have the tv on it would help, but that would just wake him up grumpy. maybe if i sit out here, maybe watch some firefly or farscape. M doesn't like sci fi, so i haven't been watching them.
chloe has jumped up on the desk with me in a plea for love and pets. how can i resist such cuteness? i wish she could put me to sleep.
i'll eat some cereal and then go back to bed. or maybe curl up on the couch.
David Bowie - Within You
