i am in full on freak out mode. i got a notice from social security telling me they don't have some information and can't pay me, starting this month. how is rent going to be paid? it was $1,000 last month and should be about that amount this month (there is a water bill variable that we pay with our rent, water ain't cheap in a permanent drought zone). doc is calm about it. i am not. i found the papers i think they need and i will fill them out today. they suggested in the form letter they sent that i come into the office, but make an appointment first. i can't get through to the office. and i don't know what M is doing so i can't just make an appointment. i'm hoping i can fax the form in at the place up the street. this is just so tragic to me, i'm falling apart and i don't know if it's the lack of geodon or just the panic about the money and the fucking up. how doc is so calm about it, i don't know. but it's friday and it feels like a working class monday. plus the panic. looks like i picked the wrong week to tweak my meds. the good thing is that if the geodon is a factor i can just start taking it again.
okay, i'm on hold. that's better than a busy signal. this is going to take forever, so i'll just post this now.