ah well.
i want to quit my medication. i am so tired of the handfuls of pills three times a day. the two weeks i was off seroquel i didn't have any "episodes", maybe i don't need it anymore. but i won't quit taking them, because if i do and i have an episode, i will have a lot of explaining to do. i know it's typical to think one is better and go off medication. i see the results in the psych hospital when i go. things go sideways and get harder to fix as you move away from the first thing that went wrong, because it is always a spiral, a bad spiral.
my coffee maker died yesterday. i need to ask M to take me to get a new one. and maybe get myself some hazelnut coffee while i'm at it.
