i dig my new doctor. he was up on the current happenings in the bipolar world. he pointed out that if i don't take the effexor with food, i lose about 40% potency of the drug. so i'll be taking that with food from now on and maybe i can cut back on my seroquel.
he also said that anti-depressants can cause manic episodes or just plain old severe mood swings in bipolar poeple. so we'll be looking at replacing the cymbalta in a month or so. we'll see if i have any more episodes between now and then.
i told him about the book and that since i've started working on the book i've been feeling really stable (yesterday's panic attack not withstanding).
we've been working 3 plus weeks now and i feel almost normal. i get through the day with no problems, sometimes i need to take a nap. and i'm tired afterward, and satisfied that i've done the best i can. that's what i envision normal to be like. and i like it