i'm just sitting here thinking how much this place will suck empty. just me and the cats.

but i'm not dwelling on that full time. i'm instead thinking of the things i'll do. i have pipe dreams of going down to the strip alone. i have more realistic aims of going to the store alone. thinking about how strong i am going to have to be.

kelli and doc think i have it in me. i believe them other times. i have to believe them now.