i want henry back

and such is my frame of mind.

thank you goes out to the valentine's cheesecake fairy. mucho goodo.

we watched Serenity today. it was good, but better if you've seen the whole Firefly series first, i think. we're doing it backwards. we plan to watch the series this week.

i've been having fantasies of going off my meds and being better. lucky no one i live with will allow that to happen because i wouldn't be better, not for long.

paranoia is friends with me lately. not good, it stops me from doing the few things i do.

i don't do much. i sit and i space out and watch things i'm not interested in.

there was this guy on the daily show, he'd been through hell and jon asked him how he was and he said something inspirational like living life as well as possible. and i want to be that. i just have to figure out how.