i'm in a weird place that no one seems to be able to pull me out of. i asked kelli to have me come into the living room. i listen to her. i don't know why, but i will do what she tells me.
nothing else has changed, really. my memory is getting steadily worse. i figure it will stop soon as the long term effects of the ECT wear off. i also need to think about getting it done on the proper side of my head. so far it is just depressing me. i have moments of manic giddyness, but mostly i just want to sleep and hide. hopefully with me being in the living room with kelli, we will go on more walks. i don't like putting this on her, but i don't know what else to do. everyone suffers.
i'm going to take a nap. i've been up for at least four hours.