on to more immediate things: the vet called, henry is improving (hooray!) and doc was reassured that as soon as he was off the IV, once they got the jaundice under control, we can bring him home and continue treatment here. i'm home all day, i've nothing better to do than care for my cat. i've nothing better to do than care for all my cats.
we should have caught this sooner. neither of us can get over that. we don't know when it started and we feel we should. we are also guilty of thinking the weight loss was a good thing and due to a weight control diet and him getting more active. and it could have turned in a couple of weeks. this is driving us crazy and we are both dealing with it in different ways. i am quiet, only occasionally blurting out some fact to make doc feel better. he wishes i would go away and stop talking altogether. i wish i could just go away and leave him alone to it. and i'm afraid it will be this way until at least henry makes a full recovery. that is a lot of weeks of stress, and we have a life changing event coming up with kam316 moves in in a few weeks.
things will remain strange. i will try not to make them strained.
i cleaned out the outside litterbox today. completely emptied it and scrubbed it out. then put fresh litter in it. i also cleaned out the indoor one with the scooper. the litter in the inside box clumps much better than the outside box. it is much easier to clean. the cats have a full dish (they use a large dog food dish as their water dish) of water and a full feeder of food.
the storage structure of wood planks, cinder blocks and milk crates out on the balcony is set back up, to jack's joy, he can be stealthy if he lays flat on the top plank, the balcony wall is just a couple of inches higher. he's cute when he's in manic spy mode. he runs from the bedroom windows to the balcony and back into a bedroom window. we're never sure what he's doing or chasing.
i'll learn an important lesson from this and be a better mother for it. henry had all the warning signs . . . but chloe lost weight when we got here 6 years ago and nothing bad happened. and it seemed gradual. ugh. i can't do this anymore, time to shut down. just for a few hours, not feel anything about anything.