I finally tracked down another graphic art type tutorial, started following it and then went right off the rails. It says, "Smile, bitch. Fake it until you make it. This is for our troops." Yeah. I don't know what I'm doing, either. I used a couple of different things I hadn't before, and managed to negotiate terms with them. So that was cool. Could I replicate this? Maybe. I didn't name the layers, or make smart objects so the filters are editable, it wasn't that important to me. Keeping it as a PSD was enough.
There was this one poster I wanted to make, but it would set up an adversarial situation where none currently exists. My joke would not be appreciated one little bit. I might make it and keep it to myself, just for a chuckle. It's an old Russian-style propaganda-style cold war era poster pitting two people against one another. The one in the tutorial uses Obama and McCain. So you can see where I might go with this. But Im not. I'm not mixing pop culture into my art. Fuck that noise. I am not artpop. Artpop is not me. That's for the others.
I'm older and I'm wiser and I'm emerging from 14 years of absolute hell of psychosis and over-medication. There is no comparison to be made between me and a pop star. Any pop star. But my sense of humor gets me into trouble. This time, something is telling me no, and I'm going to listen to it.