July 15th, 2014

2013, cyd, new

I'll try not to fuck it up for him.

The rain graphic on my desktop weather gadget is cool. it smells like hot pavement, dusty cat and wet dog outside. It's 78 degrees out, but to go out is to instantly sweat. I learned the rain just stopped here. The cats are mostly out sniffing around the back yard. Even Simon and Freddie are outside.

I slept. Well, too. I think. I only had one cup of the fresh coffee. then switched to nutrient drink. and water. always water. iced-iced-water. so when i lay down, i was tired. When I fell asleep, I was laying on my stomach on the couch. Chewy was on my back, Evie was at my feet and Simon was along my side. When I woke up, Chewy was at my feet and the rest were gone. I am furniture to them. Warm, cuddly furniture.

Okay. Doc just got done with work. He should be leaving in about 15 minutes, and should be home 15 minutes after that because he has the truck today. Since it was stormy last night and we simply don't trust the news meteorologists anymore, I told him to just take the truck and not bother with the scooter. I don't think he has to go anywhere after work. He's getting water on the way home, that won't take any time.

I got through without him last night. As far as him staying home with me, last night would have been a candidate. But I didn't say anything to him about it and decided to deal myself. Which I did.

WE'RE GETTING AN IKEA!! Finally, the Swedes deem us worthy of assembling our own furniture. in 2016, Ikea will open in the southwest valley. in 2016, I'm getting new furniture. The closest one is in L.A., in California. We don't have a car that would make the drive. The truck might, but I wouldn't chance it and the way that thing goes through gas, we wouldn't be able to afford any furniture once we got there.

Okay, the couch in its "fixed" position is good for sleeping, but nothing else. He pulls the cushion back so far, the wood base of the couch sticks out. It bruises your calves when you sit on the couch and your back when you sit in front of it. I hate this. Oh, well. He's happy. I'll try not to fuck it up for him.
2013, cyd, new

Why, Hanes, why?

Doc thinks it's funny when I carry Chewy around because he's not a toy dog, he's just a small dog with a penchant for running out the door.

I know, ionracas told me a long time ago it was the coffee. i didn't want to admit it. remember, i cling tightly to my vices. but it was the coffee. i had two cups to wake up and was fine to take my morning nap later with Doc. it turned into an afternoon nap i sent Doc to bed from. Now I'll have another one or two cups and then stop. so i can sleep tonight. maybe three cups. anyway. yes, it was the coffee. damn it.

I'm trying to call Kelli, she keeps sneaking out of the house. well, it's sneaking to me because i don't know about it. actually, she's just living her life. I just call at bad times.

Doc let me adjust the couch/futon so it's not a torture device anymore.

He was three hours late getting home, overtime. cool. i was kind of worried, but I know inside that he does overtime every so often when he's feeling particularly awake at the end of his shift. and they assign it, "mandatory overtime" - though you can tell your manager you can't do it and get out of it. whatever, corporate world.

Hane's black V-neck tshirts attract fur and lint like no other article of clothing. I have them in several weights, from thick to almost see through. and they all attract the most fur and lint of all my other clothes. none of my other black shirts are subject to this punishment. Why, Hanes, why?
2013, cyd, new

'tis the season for it

I'm weaning myself slowly away from coffee. I had three and a half cups today, instead of three pots. yes. i drank that much coffee. now it's just for staving off headaches and waking up. trying to give it up completely was stupid and unrealistic. i see that in pot, i see that in coffee. i am learning the fine art of moderation. something i've never been good at.

The storms never happened today. The sun came out and the sky got blue and it stayed that way. We did get some rain overnight. I'm sure there will be more. I haven't watched the weather cast yet, but 'tis the season for it.