i can't think of anything else to do. i filled out the forms and cleaned the house. watered the plants and the cats. fed the cats. cleaned the litterboxes. i did the dishes and emptied the dishwasher. i even cleaned off the coffee table. got all the water rings off of it. and the dust. it is so dusty here. especially because i have the windows open during the mornings when doc isn't home. and i dusted the hell out of the place and vacuumed.
i have run out of things to do. i took pictures of all the babies. made a meme for Circus Catimus.
much much later . . .
the doctor went well. i got some sleeper. and new anti-depressant. he listened to what i said about the other shrink and just shook his head in disbelief. he listened to me and helped me. i don't know why i was so scared. he even knew how long it had been since i saw him last. he asked what happened. this is a doctor who cares.