March 29th, 2014

2013, cyd, new


i got my meds at 4 this afternoon. i feel different, but not better. i slept from the time i got home until 1am. getting up now and then for a cigarette or medication. i want to go back to bed. but i can't, i was having nightmares. being stranded in pittsburgh in the snow with no money or contacts or anything. no where to go and too far to walk. i had to get up. i can't handle that right now.

i was asleep during call kelli time. and i can't get my fucking email to send. so i have no way of telliing her i'm still alive. i'm still alive, if you're reading, kelli.