December 17th, 2013

2013, cyd, new

it's so precious.

what a strange night. i never did go completely to sleep. the animals came up in a parade last night. both times i was trying to sleep. the first, when doc was sleeping for work, the second, after he left. and all of them wanted to be in my face. even Major. they curled up next to me with their heads on my pillow. each one in turn. now the kitten is playing with phantoms in the comfy chair and Major is howling and Felix has gone out for the morning. Simon makes the mistake of trying to sleep on my actual head. that doesn't work. i can't breathe eventually.

i didn't get any work done in the studio. i am starting to figure something out though, to go outside and do something, everything must be done in here first. the kitchen wasn't clean. that's his area, and i've been doing it. so i left it for a day or two. i waited in vain for him to clean it up yesterday, and he didn't. and i never felt right going out to the studio. so strange. so i will do the dishes in another hour here and have all that done. i also need to clean off the dining room table. since cleaning it off i have become fanatical about it. it has to be cleaned off. and doc keeps crapping it up with his boy stuff. i'll clean that off. i know he likes the table being clean, he keeps eating at it.

once those things are done i think i can go out side. like i said, i have a set of things i mean to do in there and i want to get to them so i can move onto the next project. there is so much to do, it's like i will never just get to make art in there. but i will.

and i have to find that other tub of happy meal toys. i can get half of that listed today, and the other half tomorrow. my sales are getting viewers. this is a good thing. though viewers hasn't helped me sell my jewelry. this is different, this is compulsion and obsession buying we're dealing with here. all i need is to have the piece that someone needs for their collection. that's just a matter of time.

i'm so concerned with selling things because #1: we need money badly, we are broke again until tomorrow evening because all the cash we got in we spent on cable and insurance, to get them paid early, and #2: i want this stuff out of my house, and #3: the money i make on ebay is my discretionary money to do with what i want. i want to buy those painting supplies, and i need to buy Chewy a sweater.

But Chewy has a sweater, you say. oh no, i say. he got out through the fence the other day with his sweater on and came home without it. i took him on a walk and let him lead, so that he would take me on his route. he did, but no sweater. i was alarmed to find out he runs up and down Rawhide, a nearby street that is really wide and straight and so even though it goes through neighborhoods and school zones, people speed like mad down it. the cops love that street, it's a quota maker. but i don't like the idea of my little doggy running down it at the whim of his snout. so today, doc and i are taking a roll of screen i scavenged years ago knowing i would eventually have a use for it, and putting screening overlapping the chicken wire. should look nice and white trash by the time we're done, but no one sees that area.

doc still hasn't gotten the scooter fixed. yesterday was J's day off, so B could have come over without the kid, but doc couldn't get a hold of him all day. doc even has cash for him. cash we can't spend on milk because it's for the precious B, whenever he shows up. and meanwhile, doc is taking his bike/buses to work and hoping that as each bus pulls up, it isn't already full of bikes. getting to work an hour early and having to just sit there, and then taking two and a half hours to get home in the morning. he could take the truck, but the truck isn't legal. it needs a tune-up to pass the smog test to get it registered and we just don't use it enough to justify the expense. it's time to justify the expense. he takes it out occasionally, or with me.

why with me? because i am a cop repellent. i've been pulled over once, and i was following someone else who got away, and i was being VERY bad. i've been pulled over in the passenger seat only once, and Mike was being VERY bad, there was no excusing us either time. but for most things, like driving an unregistered vehicle, i'm a good luck charm. doc can drive right past a cop who can see the lack of license plates and the guy just smiles at us.

i don't know if i'm getting the ornaments from my parents. i was ready to go yesterday. (in spite of what doc thinks, this is no small deal to me. i don't want to do it and i want to get it over with as soon as possible.) but doc wasn't. and he didn't get ready. so we just sat here. he fails for yesterday, come to think of it. he crapped up the table again and messed up the kitchen and didn't take me to get my ornaments. no wonder he hugged me when he left. he was feeling guilty. uh huh. he did go out and get me baking sugar yesterday, though, but i fear that was only because he wanted rum and they were at the same store.

so, baking it is! i have enough brown sugar to make two more batches. i have 4 pounds of unsalted butter and 8 pounds of sugar and a dozen eggs. i'll make snickerdoodles and heath bar crunch chip. that should keep doc in cookies at work. he gives the cookies to all the middle aged ladies and they bring him food the next day. some of them gave cookies back, they went to a cookie exchange and brought him back all manner of cookies. so i'll keep him set up for the holidays.

why has doc been doing the same thing for the same company for years and not moving up? he doesn't want to. the only up for him is to management. there is little worse than being UPS management. he doesn't want to deal with the office politics and bullshit. so he stays in his job, getting raise after raise, bringing in his numbers even though he spends roughly one day a week at home. his manager recently approached him again about training to become a supervisor, doc just laughed. i don't know what his long term plans are, but he seems content in his job. we both want him to work for Zappos, because better. but then he would have to deal with the general public again and now he does phone support for other employees.

after ten years of trying, i finally read Anne Rice's "Memnoch the Devil". it gets so weird, i always got lost in the prose and lost touch with the plot and gave up. this time i soldiered through. and it was worth it, i guess. i don't understand. i saw the ending coming, but i still don't quite get it. i think i need to know more about God and the Devil to completely get it.

now i'm reading her "Merrick" on the computer and Stephen King's "Rage" in the bath. i think one of them will have to go on hold because the two do not mesh quite right.

oh, wow, it's 6 already. that's what i get for reading.

i joined a site called Spark's Notes. an online version of Cliff's Notes. i surfed it for a while and finally gave up on it, i couldn't decide what to read up on. they have book anayisis, standardized test prep, and subject prep. i want to dive in. but i want to have the book i'm studying. i think i have a copy of Hamlet out, i'll do that. it's been high school since i read Hamlet, and since college since i saw it on the big screen. i've forgotten most of what i knew about it. i also really want to study "To Kill a Mockingbird". i don't know what else i could learn from it. i know that book almost by heart. so i'm looking forward to learning something new about it.

i posted a video on http;//facebook.com/fabulousdisaster of Chewy and Tulip fighting/playing. it's so precious.
2013, cyd, new

but they still eat it too fast for me to keep up.

i cleaned the kitchen and made cookie dough. i had to melt the butter because it was frozen and i'm no good at microwave defrosting. so it's in the fridge firming up. the dishes that i hand washed should be dry in a few minutes and the dishwasher will be done an emptied before doc gets home at 11. and the cookies will be made.

and i will be out in the studio with the big door open. along with clearing out the two drawers and garbage bags, i want to move an end table to the end of my six foot table so i can put wrapping paper and such on it.

i've gathered all of the zentangles i have pinned, and i'm going to put them on legal paper sized backgrounds and print them out for the studio. i can pin some up, but i mainly want to have them for sketching out there. they will inspire me. and tech me techniques i don't know.

the snickerdoodle recipe i found that i liked called for Cream of Tartar, which i omitted because i don't have it. i don't think i'll need it. though the flour isn't self rising. i think it will work out fine. argh, i can't wait for the dough to stiffen! i'm planning to have those for breakfast. oh, yeah, that reminds me that i was going to make biscotti for doc for the holidays. i'll make it when he's not around and surprise him with it in his stocking.

so much baking and cooking! and i still haven't decided what to make for xmas dinner. i think we're going to get munchie things for dinner and just graze and watch Farscape and enjoy each other's company. since we're able to enjoy each other's company. it seems like the thing to do, not to get all mushy about it.

i got two xmas cards, one from Pgh. Leslie and one from my adopto-mom, kelli's mom. she included pictures of kelli and her niece with her cats. we trade cat pictures for her niece. so now i have three xmas cards. and that's all i'm expecting, really. i'm pretty happy. i have them up on the cable box and tv for display. i should move the prescription bottle that's also up there, it doesn't go with the whole motif.

i did the litterboxes, too. i've been doing that compulsively lately. doc hasn't had to remind me at all. i'm also getting better with feeding and watering the beasties. Chewy's bowl is too big for him, so i fill it and it lasts about three days, provided Tulip and Major don't get into it. and the cats have a Forever Feeder, which is a misnomer. it's a three day feeder with this group. less than that since we've been out of tinned food for them. we'll get more for tomorrow's meal, but times have been lean. poor babies have had to deal with just premium crunchy food. we splurged on it, knowing we would have to take away their wet food. it was the cheaper alternative. since they are hungrier, they will want to eat more, ergo, giving them a filling food would make them eat about the same. but they still eat it too fast for me to keep up.
2013, cyd, new

what a day

someday i'm going to type one of these out and not fix any of my typos and see if any of you can figure out what i'm trying to say.

some of my Happy Meal toys sold. which is very cool. i didn't get any more listed today, but i'm not concerned about it, i'll do it tomorrow.

doc informed me that i am NOT doing his side of the garage for him. he's terrified i'll break something. he has nothing breakable. whatever. less for me to do.

we're having a Southern Feast for xmas. doc's parents sent us 2 - 1lb racks of smoked and sauced pork ribs. so i'm going to make super mac and cheese and cornbread and we're going to grill the ribs outside because we can. we may even set up the firepit and eat outside. i may make potato salad, too. bring a bit of summer to the holiday season. it seems so wildly inappropriate. it begs to be done. i won't make colard greens because neither of us will eat them.

kelli sent my xmas present today. i have to assert control and wrap it when it gets here and not open it. just make it pretty and put it under the tree.

UPS HR has gone insane. they want me to verify not only that i am a dependent, but that i am a person. they want to see my birth certificate and social security card. okay. they actually suggested i send them the original documents and keep photocopies for myself. are they high?

so i installed the scanner on the old laptop, and Photoshop and then scanned in the documents. we'll submit them electronically. send them the originals, right.

then, for good measure, i installed the mp3 player and put xmas music on it. this takes more steps than it sounds like. i had to hook up the USB hub, then get the stick with the software and use it. then find my firewire, it was right where i left it. then put the xmas music from the laptop or blue max on a stick and take it over to the old laptop and transfer it. i guess it's not that much, it was just overwhelming. i was doing that and scanning the documents and putting them on another stick, and printing out zentangles from the new laptop. i guess i just told myself it was a lot because i was multi-tasking.

i'm so tired. i lay down at 3 and fell asleep at 6 and then woke up at 8 and lay there until 9:30. then i got up and got ready or doc to wake up and get ready for work. so . . . about three and half hours sleep for the last 24. and a whole lot of laying down. one of the problems i have is with restless leg syndrome. it hits me as soon as i lay down and get comfortable. usually i have to take a hot bath to make it stop. today i suffered through it, twitching my leg when it got to be too much. the cats stayed off of me during that time. and i took two ambien. i should have slept.

Chewy is after Tulip again. it's so cute the way he growl/talks to her. it's too dark to film, so i'm just going to sit back and relax and watch it.

i have to remember i have an appointment with the cable company at 8 tomorrow morning. maybe we'll finally get In Demand. it's a free service, and i'm finding they really don't care if it works or not. but they are a good cable company and as soon as you call, they send someone out to fix it. i even get to pick the time they are coming. i wanted to get it over with, so i scheduled it as early as i could.

i think i'm going to go lay down. maybe i can sleep tonight if i turn off the tv and lights. i should go to bed, but i'm just too addicted to sleeping on the couch. it's more comfortable than my bed. my bed makes my back hurt. i think i need a real mattress. just sleeping on the floor on a thin futon mattress is not for me anymore.

i have to pack up stuff to mail tomorrow. ebay packages and kelli's present. i didn't do it today, i was too busy playing with the computer and baking cookies. 1/3 of which i burned. sinful.