August 1st, 2013

2013, cyd, new

don't know what

you ever wake up from a dream both relieved and sad to leave it? i woke up like that today. i don't remember the dream, something with doc that was good, but i was relieved when i woke up. i also couldn't move. i had slept on my back on the couch, a no-no, and was in so much pain i couldn't move. that faded with the first cigarette. the dream feeling took three more smokes to fade.

i can't seem to stop chain smoking today. i'm anxious about something, but i don't know what.