April 2nd, 2013

2013, cyd, new

all the stuff except some of it

so we pick milo up from the shelter (don't ask) this afternoon/evening. i need to make some calls and coordinate some document faxing between shelters. but the cops arranged it so we could pick the dog up instead of S. she'll be here around 10. then i don't know if we're dealing with cops tonight, or waiting for doc to deal with it. i hope we're waiting for doc to deal with it. he is infinitely patient and a definition of Switzerland must include his neutrality.

i have to clean up S's room today. i'll do that when i'm done here. it won't take long, there's only a couple of things in there. then i'll vacuum and febreeze it, no, not febreeze, i'll open the window and let it air out.

i feel so bad for S. she move away from chaos and pain just to move into more. B is being a fuckwit. everyone is falling apart. it's a mess. and i'm glad we're not a big part of it. doc has done his best to shield me from it. he consulted me extensively about S moving in. her coming over sunday was like an interview. i liked her. i could see myself living with her. she looks like Amy Pond from Doctor Who. she has straight red hair and is rail thin and dresses really cool. she is articulate and funny and intelligent.

and milo. i can't go on enough about milo. he didn't go after the cats, the cat food, the cat box . . . nothing. he lays down next to S and stays there. he only comes to her and doesn't seem to like other people, but he's friendly, not a harsh bone in his body. he's a samoyed, so he's a giant version of Fergus, my old dog. we're going to shave him. or rather, they are going to shave him for summer.

i want to get simon shaved for summer as well. he has mattes on his tummy, and he won't let me brush there. the only problem is, he has to be sedated, well, put under, for it to be done. that is dangerous. not terribly, but it does make me worry. but he'll be so much happier with short fur.

vader is now comfortable with his surroundings and has turned into a demon. he found some ratty old fur mousie that he plays with all the time he's not getting into trouble or sleeping on the comfy chair. he sneaks out at every opportunity, i think we're going to have to make him an outdoor/indoor cat. right now he and bagira are playing pounce under the dining room table among the debris.

i unpacked the CDs yesterday. jesus we have a lot of them. three CD racks of varying size. doc has more than me. when i clean up S's room, i'll take the stereo out of there and set it up in my room. then i can at least listen to music in my room while i read. maybe a good project for me today would be to do my room some more. i could get the stuffed animals back on the bed, hang up my clothes, and do my dresser before doc even gets home from work today.

it took a while, but the valium is working. i'm not rocking much anymore and my leg bouncing has calmed down a lot. i tend to only do it when i'm listening to music. the change to cymbalta seems to have done a LOT of good. i'm motivated again and not always tired. i only quit it the first time because of the fainting, but at the lower dose i'm on now, i don't seem to have that problem anymore.

i got the pharmacy shit worked out and as soon as i pay $300, i will get my cymbalta. the reason it was rejected was because it was $1850 for the three months. i pay 20% or am capped at $300. i hit my cap. here's the thing, i don't know where the hell i'm going to get the money. i have just enough in my account to pay rent. that's it until the end of the month. i'll have to "borrow" the money from doc. i really hope i can get food stamps, it will really help out with the finances.

okay, time to clean shit up. i'm tired of sitting here. i may even rake the yard while i have a cigarette. i want to make it easy to clean up dog messes. plus all the leaves are bugging the crap out of me. and the pine needles, they are choking off my ivy. i need to get that cleaned up first. then the leaves. busy day. great weather for it. i'll have freddie and lelu out with me for some company. and maybe my laptop for some music. now it's a project, okay, clean inside first, then do yard. right.

have a great day/night.
2013, cyd, new

oy, what a morning

i know i got up and did my regular routine of coffee, iced water and cigarettes. i know i took my meds. and the rest is a blur.

i cleaned up around the house
i vacuumed the whole house
i fed lelu
i made the calls i had to make
i raked the pine needle part of the yard
i filled and started the dishwasher

and then S came over. whirlwind. it is going to be so fun living with her. she and doc are out doing the things that unfortunately need to be done today to finalize her moving in.

all i have to do is stay awake. wait, let's add to that, shall we?

empty the dishwasher
make more coffee
hang the clothes up in my room
find a power cord for my stereo
find at least one speaker for my stereo
hook it up
clear up the clutter on the floor of my room
revacuum my room

that should keep me busy until they get back with the truck. then, when they go to get milo and her stuff, i can sleep until they get back, and then i'll help with unpacking. or maybe i won't sleep. maybe i'll finish what's to do in my room so i can bring more stuff in from the garage.
2013, cyd, new

almost done

all that remains in my room to be dealt with is my box of gargoyles, and a small pile of clothes in my closet. finally i'm unpacked. mostly. once my gargoyles and some are is up. i also need to clean up the top of my dresser and put my gramma's american indian blanket down. and move a lamp. and find a power cord for my stereo. maybe even another speaker.

there is a dog drooling on my carpet and i haven't seen freddie or vader for hours. coincidentally, around the time milo arrived. he's been an angel.

and the room down the hall is now inhabited. they are taking the truck back now. i think doc has a crush on her, it's so cute. meanwhile, he is being extra nice to me. i can dig that. i don't care who is sleeping with whom, so long as no one is hassling me.

tomorrow i'm going to rake the other half of the yard and make one pile of the pine needles. then i'm going to weed. weed like the devil is chasing me. the area around tony the tree is all tall weeds. tall enough to lose a cat in. which i have done. freddie hides in the weeds from me. i'm going to put a stop to that.

then i'm going to bring at least two bags, or one bag and one box into my room to unpack and put away. if we have to move in a few months, i'm going to be pissed. but i've decided i want to stay here as long as we can. doc is with me on this.

i should go look for the level and put up the cork board. that will make doc happy. then i'll tidy up some more. there is always tidying to do, we have clutter. we are clean, we just have clutter.
2013, cyd, new

the day went off without a hitch

drama over. everyone is here with everything that should be. just the way it should be.

i've lost a lot of respect for a friend, and that makes me sad. but i'll get over it. i've met guys like that before and there's nothing you can do about it.

everyone's asleep. S just got up and we smoked together outside for a few minutes. then she went back to bed. doc is in bed until midnight, when he has to get up for work. though he may take the night off. which i would certainly understand. he went through hell today on no sleep.

i took a two hour nap myself tonight. i love my clean room. now if i could just get the smell of cat piss out of there. i keep the box clean, but lelu has peed on the carpet. we have a steam cleaner now, so i can clean that up. she's always just kind of peed where she wanted, and at 15, it's far too late to do anything about it. i don't mind cleaning it out of the carpet.

i found a tapestry to put over my window. it's so old. like 25 years. it's purple and red and has elephants and camels on it. it's already faded from the sun, and i don't get much sun because of Tony the Tree. so it's perfect to go in the window. air will get through it when the window is open, and i can leave my blinds open so simon and the others can sleep in the window at night.

i'm so bored and i want to do something, but i have to sit here and be quiet. i'm so happy with my room, i want to work on it more.

oh, and tomorrow i'm going to put the white string lights up around the patio. since we're going to be spending a lot more time out there, i figure it's time. plus i need the room in the xmas box for other things i've been finding that are xmas related. unpacking is a good thing. i know where the staple gun is, and extra staples. i have a step stool to reach up to the ceiling without relying on the rickety old chairs. time to make things festive.

the recycling finally got put out. whew. it was taking over the side of the yard. we recycle EVERYthing we possibly can. the only thing we don't have is a compost pile, thank the maker. so anyway, we missed the last recycling pick up so we had a month's worth. plus all the paper i was recycling in the form of magazines from unpacking. i really hate recycling. i'm not afraid to confess it. the whole thing is doc's doing. he is a fanatic about it. once you get over the pain in the ass part of sorting every piece of waste you have, it's quite a lovable trait.

the small rose bush on the side of the house? one of two, is blooming and it's red. and it's small roses. there's only a couple of flowers on it, but dozens of buds. once it gets into fuller bloom, i'll take pictures of it. it's been a really long time since i had roses in the yard. it makes me feel like i'm home. and the pine tree in the back makes me feel like i'm camping. and the patio breezes make me feel like i'm at the shore. this place is fabulous.