January 21st, 2013

2013, cyd, new

bagira drama

doc left the garage door open yesterday and bagira snuck out. doc also had the large garage door open, and was afraid bagira went outside. so we put his food outside and i went out and called him occasionally. then, as doc was leaving, he saw bagira in the garage and got the scooter out quickly.

i've been going into the mudroom, which the garage is off of, and calling bagira, hoping i could get him in. we had the mudroom shut off from the house so no other cats got into the garage. i was smoking in my spot in the kitchen and i saw jack watching the mudroom door. so i slowly opened it and bagira ran into the garage. totally frustrated at this point, i grabbed his treats and shook the bag. he came right in. *facepalm*

so he's wandering around the house. being followed at a distance by sai sai, felix and jack. there has been a bit of hissing, but no growling, and no howling out of felix. these are all good signs.

we just spent time bonding in the kitchen. he jabbers a lot. many different meows that are easy to mimic. so he's in the kitchen, and the boys have found something else to do that doesn't involve bagira. that's the nice thing about them, short attention spans.
2013, cyd, new

"sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy"

the sun is in my eyes. i love that. right now. it's because tony lost all of his leaves, so the sun can get through. in the summer, tony keeps this side of the house cool. and in the winter, lets the sun through to keep it warm in the morning before it warms up for the day.

speaking of warming up, we're having a mini heat wave later this week. temps in the upper 60s. low wind. it will be great for doc because it won't be as cold at night when he rides to work. i don't think he realizes just how much colder it would be on a motorcycle. i just don't want him to get a cycle. i guess it's safer than the scooter. and would get slightly more consideration from the cops. the scooter is just looked upon in this city as a nuisance.

according to simon and jack, bagira is no longer in the mudroom. so he's found someplace in the house to hide, that's cool. coming out of the mudroom was a big step. now he's got a bunch of cats to get to know. jack is still acting as ambassador. he doesn't hiss at bagira and bagira doesn't hiss at him. they sit and stare at one another as if they're talking.

it's not warm enough to go outside yet. i plan on taking lelu and freddie out for a while today while it's warm. they haven't gotten much outside time since it got cold. i'm sure felix will go out for a romp through the neighborhood. he went out for about an hour yesterday. the first hour he was running around, the next three were because i was asleep. at least he had food out there. which reminds me, i need to feed the strays today. and hook up the webcam and find some home spying software to use it on the strays. that way i can watch them without them seeing me.

i think i should order a new webcam. i'm having a really hard time getting mine to work and it's 7 years out of production. i have one on the laptop, but it's stationary. i need one with a cable. i have USB extensions, so i can get it over to the window while the laptop stays on the table.

today on twitter i learned not to poke the righties. they have NO sense of humor. or civility. ricky gervais tweeted today it was safer on twitter to just sit back and watch, and i think i agree with that.

hehe, freddie just got up, out from under the comfy chair; came over for a fuzzle; and jumped up on the couch and curled up and went back to sleep. that puts cats on both couches and the comfy chair. i guess i'm not taking a nap. maybe bagira will come out and see me. he's really meowy. i love talking to him. oh, lelu's awake, she's going to be wanting her mid morning snack. nope, she curled back up and went to sleep. heh.

xmas is still up. half the lights burned out on the tree. the bottom half works though. and the top half is the half with the glitter tinsel, so you don't miss the lights. doc will likely let me keep it up until the end of the month. maybe until valentine's day, though that is pushing it a little. i'm putting the red rope lights in my room but i don't know where yet. it's a little hard without being able to make holes in the wall or ceiling. i guess i'll drape them over the mirror on the dresser and the top of the dresser. i really need to unpack my room.

you said "never again"
and then you tell me
if i take back what i said
you'll take it back
and i'm so confused
you say so much in anger
and i don't know what
is meant to last or not
you get so mean
and i guess you're just
getting me back
for what i do to you
but i'm not used to letting
it roll off my back, it
should stick if it's said
i say things in anger and
i mean most of them
maybe only for an hour
maybe forever
it's like that with me
angry is like drunk
the truth comes pissing out
and there is nothing
you can do to stop it
2013, cyd, new

My tweets

  • Sun, 12:25: RT @AtheistHawkeye2: If ur morality is based on an afterlife reward scheme, it's not a morality I recognise, do what is right regardless ...
  • Mon, 00:37: "it was a teenage wedding and the old folks wished them well."
  • Mon, 03:31: bagira drama… http://t.co/aLtvBCBe
  • Mon, 07:08: it's one of THOSE days on twitter, i cannot tolerate the blanket stupidity of the sheep. republicans and the religious, look out.
  • Mon, 07:30: "He's a big, strong man with a child's mind, don't you take his booze away!" - Dropkick Murphys
  • Mon, 07:38: okay, @BelellKaeh i confess, i am a mentally ill gun owner looking for righties to target. that should get me put away, right?
  • Mon, 07:53: i have a rightie friend who is perfectly capable of answering questions straight and being civil, obviously she is a rare thing.
  • Mon, 08:22: @WBCShirl #NationalDestructionIsComing could you hint as to when, i want to know if i should bother with the mastectomy.
  • Mon, 08:24: RT @rickygervais: I'm slowly realising that Twitter is like sport - So much easier and less dangerous if you just watch.
  • Mon, 09:57: "sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy"… http://t.co/bf0wce1W
2013, cyd, new

from your angle, i'm sure it's different

i'm not getting anything done. i'm absolutely unproductive. i consume. that is all i do. i consume, i excrete, i sleep. and that sums up my life. something needs to change.

i DID write a poem today, so i should feel good about that. maybe tonight, after doc goes to work, i'll work on my poetry. i think i have enough money to get myself an ISDN number for my next book. but there's no point getting it until i'm ready. then i can justify the expense.

i've got no excuse not to record more poems. hell, i've got poems recorded that aren't on my podcast that i could put up and i don't. i am the laziest person i know! this has got to stop! the fear is just an excuse not to move forward. and why am i so afraid of moving forward? i'm not worried about publishing another book that gets ignored. it's been 6 years and i haven't sold one of my other books. in fact, i have the only copies. i could take them down and have the only copies and way long from now when i'm dead and burned someone can find them and they will be incredibly valuable. yeah.

okay. enough fantasy. time for more coffee. (break for dancing and music)

wow, i just had a bagira encounter. i went into the kitchen to get the coffee and he was in the doorway of the mudroom, just sitting there owning the doorway. so i called to him and got down on his level and made "fuzzle" hand (rub the tips of the first two fingers of your hand against your thumb quickly) at him and meowed at him until he slowly made his way over to me. he got head rubs and butt pets and went over to the wet food dish to have some dinner.

i'm going to just love this cat, i can tell. he's got a loud, deep purr. like i said, his fur is a bit longer than jack and freddie's. and he has a big fluffy tail. he's got short legs and a fat belly. but all of him is fat, not just his belly. he's got padding all over. freddie's just got more of a fat belly, the rest of her is skinny. but not bagira. he's built like a bulldog. like henry was.

1-800-pet meds really means it when they say they send your pet a treat with your order. with lelu's meds the other day, they sent a packet of catnip. i'm planning to break it out tonight and see how the cats like it. they are really happy with the nip they have, but are always willing to try another kind.

when the woman across the street moved out, she gave us all manner and size of terra cotta pots and saucers to go with them. plus doc trash picked a really nice growing box. so i plan to have a container garden this spring and summer. i'm hopig i do better with outdoor plants than i do with indoor plants. in the box i'll plant some nice kind of grass for the cats to eat, maybe with some catnip thrown in so it all grows together.

and i'll do some basil and cilantro and oregano for doc's cooking. and maybe some lettuces. i'll have to do some research on that to see how picky lettuce is to grow. if it needs a lot of water or care, it's not for me. i need stuff that can be watered every other day, that just sits in its container and grows. there's plenty of sunlight out on the porch. not direct sunlight. at least not for most of the day.

and we have to find a bird seed source for the spring, summer times. i still plan to put a bird feeder out. i'm going to put a humming bird feeder out, too. since we have those. i love humming birds.

and wildflowers. ones that are indigenous. i want to scatter them along the wall and i plan to nurture the ivy out back and see if i can get it to grow up the wall a bit.

doc's up, time to end this and pay attention to him.