December 19th, 2012

2013, cyd, new

so disoriented

usually i wake up when doc is leaving in the day and coming home at night. tonight i woke up at 1:15am and he was leaving and it was dark. i'm so disoriented.

i have to do the dishes tonight. i did something bad and that is my penance. no problem. i wash dishes with the best of them.

i'm still downloading my lj. i'm using a program called ljArchive. it displays the journal entries and comments and features a search. it's just taking all damn day. but it will be worth is when it's done. i'm still going to have to copy and paste all my poems, but they will be easier to find with the search feature.

dishes are done. kitchen is clean. doc will be so surprised when he gets home. i did the litter boxes yesterday. today? i don't know what day it is. i don't much care. i have to call in the morning and cancel my shrink appointment and push it back. that way i can save the money on the co-pay and spend it instead on the FMLA paperwork which is due at doc's work.
2013, cyd, new

"it's not my fault and you're not getting one from me"

i woke up at nine this morning, convinced doc was in bed. and made him coffee, during which i noticed that the truck was gone and realized he was at work. i called to remind him to get milk and he was already at the store.

i'm still downloading my lj. it's almost done. i forgot that i deleted several of the first months i kept it. i wish i hadn't done that. but it's no real loss when you look at all i have. most of it won't be useable. but some of it can actually be published.

there have been no book sales, but i'm really into publishing myself. i have to look at ebooks. i've said that before. oh well. i've said most things before. i have no original thoughts any more.