August 13th, 2012

2013, cyd, new

it's been a couple of days

and i'm feeling better. this weekend i limited my computer time to email and twitter and posting many pictures.

i've decided to read and listen to all my poetry and to read my livejournal. i want to see if there's anything in it that i can use for other projects. plus i would like to remember the past 12 years i've been writing in here. maybe it will give me some insights into myself and my writing style and i can start working on getting it back.
2013, cyd, new

why am i so stressed out?

i went to bed at 11am and woke up at 1:30pm and had a smoke and went back to bed until 7pm. i woke up in a bad, nearly psychotic mood.

a fly pushed me over the edge. usually i'm quite calm about a fly on me. this time, no. i almost killed the poor beast. so i came in and took a xanax. i feel much better now. the fly has retired for the night, but tomorrow's another day to make it up to him.

i don't feel like doing anything. tomorrow i have to get my shit together. i've been lazing around since we got here and it needs to stop.