June 1st, 2012

2013, cyd, new

"the past is gone but something might be found to take its place"

a few days of fevers and coughing and a whole lot of snot, and i'm finally over my cold. that sucked.

doc has finally started seriously looking for houses. i told him i was moving at the end of june, with or without him. without him, it would be to pittsburgh. not a threat. just the way it is. i would rather not give up life as i know it, but a part of me is really wondering what it would be like to go back to pittsburgh.

but i've been thinking about it all too much and freaking myself out. i don't want to think about it any more tonight. tonight i'm going to watch netflix and just think about nothing.

tomorrow doc is taking his truck over to get a door fixed. before he does, he's supposed to take me to walmart to get some stuff i really need. we'll see if that happens. i still haven't been in the truck. he's keeping it to himself, and it's fine. his new toy. let him play with it and the guys for a while until he gets over the novelty.

i do really need to go to walmart, though. all of my tshirts have holes in them and if they aren't black, they have stains, and i'd like to get some new ones. and maybe some shorts. that would mean shaving my legs, but i already have razor blades on my list. i may have to get a new razor, though. i have a venus that i've had since kurt and courtney were married. it may be time for a new one.

ragdoll now gives me cuddles whenever she comes around. i've been feeding her more. my desire to see and pet her was overcome by my desire to make sure she's getting enough to eat. i also keep a dish of water out on the porch with the food and put ice in the water periodically throughout the day. i wish i could have brought her in today, it was 108 out. but she did come by and have some food and ice water.