January 8th, 2012

2013, cyd, new

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i'm awake
i'm asleep
i'm awake
i'm asleep
i'm all fucked up and i'm fucking hallucinating again.

when i get ahold of my shrink, i'm supposed to ask him if going to the hospital to let them observe me and work my meds out once and for all. again. the zyprexa just isn't working and neither is the klonopin. plus, without a sleeper i'm completely fucking lost. plus i'm suicidal again. any disagreement with dic just throws me over the edge.