September 30th, 2011

2013, cyd, new

headed for fall, for real

i woke up on the couch again today around 8. fred's cage was on the chair next to my head and she had had a rather stinky accident in there. so i got up and cleaned that up while she ate. then put her back in the cage. i hate to do it, but she's been trying to nest, find a safe, dark place to have her kittens. and we can't be losing her in the clutter. after her scar heals after saturday, she can have free reign, but until then, i'm afraid i have to keep her in the cage when she isn't eating. she almost got away from me last night behind the craft table, but i got her out just in time before she disappeared.

i was in the mood to talk last night when doc got home, but he wasn't. he was snarky to me and then retreated into a computer game once he came in and sat down. it was sad for me but i went to sleep and got over it.

it's been hot here, relatively speaking. 100 degrees for the past few days. now a cool down is coming with 80s called for and a chance of rain. i could handle a rainy weekend. especially if it's going to be cooler behind it. the summer went by really fast. no matter how it seems like time is dragging each day, they pass quickly. and then you look at the date on the onscreen tv guide and realize september is almost over.

we got fred just in time. i wanted to get her before halloween because she's black and a target. we once had a vet who took in black cats in october and wouldn't adopt them out until after the holiday. the administrator in the office who started it got write ups in the local paper and everything. she would be very proud of us for saving fred.

i'm just glad we saved her because she is a kitty in distress that was near starvation, that needed a home. further pushing the genetic line of jack hypothesis, she drinks water with her paws and plays in it like jack does. it's eerie.
2013, cyd, new

fred fred fred

i put fred back in the bathroom to stretch out and be comfortable. i couldn't stand to see her in the kennel anymore.

did i write this morning? oy. i was still half asleep. i tried to take a nap but it didn't work and i ended up going for a walk.

i have chores to do, a kitchen to clean today. i just won't do it until after the heat of the day. you know, the heat i just went out and walked in. i can get to the corner store and back in just over 15 minutes now. i have to stop doing it though, i keep buying junk food and i'm gaining weight. as well as spending money unnecessarily.

fred was really meowy today, i hope it doesn't mean anything more than she didn't like the kennel. doc is thinking about her having the babies, and keeping one. i am against this. i've lost too many young cats and entire litters to kitten aged moms. i'm just not willing to risk it. i am way to attached to this cat.
2013, cyd, new

may the goddess bless me

an hour ago i did not feel right. it came on so quickly, the paranoia and the shallow breathing and the heart palpitations . . . i don't know what triggered me, but i really started freaking out. i took a xanax and went into the bathroom to hang out with fred. i figured some unconditional love would do me good and felix wasn't around. fred did her job and calmed me down. i talked to her and pet her and fuzzled with her. then i watched her bathe herself, which i always find relaxing (is that weird?) and i slowly chilled out. i don't know what made me freak out like that, i was on the verge of calling doc at work, which is a big no no unless it's a big emergency. which it wasn't, but it felt like it to me.