August 10th, 2011

2013, cyd, new

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bad mental health days. doc's been home with me for two days watching me. i feel like doing harm to myself. i'm having hallucinations and nightmares.

in the next two weeks, i'll have my new laptop. the google page i'm trying to load should be up by then. hee. i hate this laptop except for the fact that i love having a laptop. it will be so nice to have a new one that has more than 3gigs of hard drive space. i can install my cameras. maybe even install a web cam and have some public time every day. there's free wi fi here, so i don't have to worry about being connected to a wire for internet.

i have to go. when i'm like this, it makes me feel better to rock back and forth and i can't do that and type at the same time. i don't do it in front of people, except doc, who can handle it. it disturbs him, but he can deal with it.